Monday, November 25, 2013

Been thinkin'

I am not doing so hot on keeping this blog up. I am beginning to contemplate making it more about life, instead of what I am doing weight loss wise. I haven't been doing to great at the weight loss thing either. I am not gaining, but I am not losing. Need to just jump right back on that horse....

So I guess it's off to the gym I go tonight.

Short post. I am exhausted. Only 4 more months of this dance mom thing. It's bittersweet.

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Whoopsieeeee!!! Where did I go?!?!

A lot of my friends and family already know it, but blog followers might not. I had surgery on August 1st. It was very much needed, but it couldn't have come at a worse time. Smack dab in the middle of my weight loss journey was not a convenience.

It seems as though I kind of let everything go while I was healing. Stopped posting on my blog, stopped tracking calories, stopped working out, ate like crap. It was easy to have Matt pick up something instead of trying to cook. For the first 3 weeks, I didn't come out of my room. I had a lot of pain and some serious depression set in. A lot of things were very final after the surgery and it all hit me at once. I filled my face with junk. I ate allllllllll the things!!! It took Matt telling me to snap out of it to finally come out of my room. And for a few weeks after I stayed home and didn't leave. I didn't want to go out and I was wallowing in self pity and pain. But like with everything else in my life, things turned around. I finally felt okay and started doing things again. However, counting calories and eating well wasn't a priority.

8 weeks post-op I went to a Zumba class, and I was hooked immediately. It is such a fun atmosphere. And I have fun with friends that go with. I've started back to my running/walking 5k training and starting back at square one sucks. I will get back to where I was though. I weighed myself this morning. And while I was eating like crap, I was some how able to maintain my weight. So I am excited to say that the scale moved down this morning!! I've lost 2 more pounds! I am 20 pounds away from my first goal weight. I have decided that once I get to my goal, I am setting a new goal for 10 more pounds and then I will maintain.

Onward and upward!!!

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Finish The Sentence


Today I am finally doing a Finish the Sentence link up with Holly and her boo thang Jake.  I've always wanted to take part in this linkup but never pulled the trigger. Not afraid now!!

If I had one extra hour in the day...I would hide. All by myself. In a closet. And eat allllll the things.

I wish my name was...not so stripper-esqe. I am not sure what the parents were thinking, but Misty and Mindy? Really? It's almost like they were starting our career on the pole early. They should have just spelled it Miss-Tee.

I think anything chevron is...related to gasoline. For the longest time, when people referred to chevron, I thought they meant the gas station. I always called chevron patterns on clothing zig zags. Now I know what it is. I don't own any. But it sure is cute on my daughter!

My last nightmare...was horr.i.ble. I don't even like trying to remember it. I went through about a 2 week period where every night I was having nightmares. Then I realized falling asleep with Dexter on was probably not helping.

Sometimes...I put all of the clean clothes that have been sitting in my laundry basket, unfolded and wrinkled, for a week back into the wash and rewash it. And that may or may not happen 2 or 3 times before it gets put away. Who am I kidding?? That happens more than sometimes!

My last meal on earth...would be a Mexican Fiesta!! Enchiladas, tacos, burritos, nachos, chips & salsa, guac, queso, tamales. I would eat it all and I would put my middle finger up to My Fitness Pal without any guilt!! And then I would pray that that was truly my last meal because that would be hell on my stomach and bathroom!

I would much rather  ____ than _____....hang out in a small room with a gorilla than go to a circus and risk running into a clown. Don't laugh. I sweat just thinking about clowns. a necessary evil that smells like eggs and reminds me of the word that I hate most on this planet. Starts with an M and ends with an oist. The sound mayonnaise makes when you put the knife in the jar is dis.gus.ting.

10 years ago, I didn't think...I would be living back in Smallbany, remarried. Thank God destiny changed my path!

Selfishly...when I get Kohl's rewards, I use them before my daughter finds out that I have them. She doesn't need any more clothes anyways. She could clothe a small village from head to toe.

My favorite T.V. show right now is...Big Brother. I am obsessed. Watch the live feeds, after dark, read the blogs, twitter, etc. Aaryn is the debil.

George Zimmerman...has a special place in hell. Nuff' said.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

So close I can taste it

I am 1 pound away from my mini goal mark. I've lost 29 pounds as of this morning. One more pound to go. I can't even believe it. I am in total and complete shock. I've said it before, and I will say it again. I didn't think that I could lose 2 pounds let alone 30. I also hit a non scale victory this week. Several years ago when I started climbing in pants sizes, I packed away some of my favorite jeans and capris. I gave a lot away, but kept about 10 favorites. Some size 12, 10 and 7. (I also kept a pair of size 5's but those are still packed away) I got the box out on Sunday and tried the 12's on. Too BIG!!! The size 10's fit perfectly. I am so excited about that. It's like getting new clothes without having to spend the money!

This dress is a medium!!! I haven't ever been a medium in my life. I was always a small and then went right to a large, x-large. So to be a medium now is exhilarating!! When I put that dress on I almost cried. I didn't look like a busted can of biscuits and I felt great! The hubs said I looked hot! (He's a sweet man)

Tomorrow I am going to link up with on of my favorite bloggers, Holly and do a finish the sentence link up. She is hilarious and we all know that I love to laugh. And even if no one reads my blog, these link ups are fun fun fun! 

Until tomorrow! 
P.S. I really need a signature for my blog. 

Thursday, July 11, 2013

If I Won the Lottery.


 I love these fun link ups!! This one is seriously something that I think about often. I mean to the point where if I can't sleep at night, I start thinking about what I would do if I won the lottery and it helps soothe me. (Yep, I'm crazy) So what would I do if I won the lottery....
 1. I would pay off all of our debt and it would feel glorious.

 2. I would go to the DMV and bribe those ladies with thousands upon thousands to give Karlee her license. Just bypass that permit and all of the testing. Ain't nobody got time fo' dat and I am exhausted driving her around all the time. (PS if you know me, or my daughter, you know why I have to bribe them, instead of just having her take the test...again.)

 3. I would hire a good lawyer, who would help get me out of jail for bribing government officials. (see number 2)

 4. I would donate a large sum to the American Cancer Society, to Autism Awareness, and to the Crohn's Colitis Foundation.

 5. I would build a new covered stadium for South Albany High School. Hate watching games in the rain and graduation should be held at the school. More room for errrrbodddddy!!!

 6. I would buy my dream car:

7. And I would buy my husband his:

8. I would pay for college for both of my kids and for my neices and nephews.

 9. I would buy my parents new cars and I would pay off their house. Make them comfy for the rest of their lives.

 10. I would hide out for a year, travelling the world with my family so people couldn't say they were my long lost cousin's brother's uncle and ask for some money.

 11. I could keep going with this list. I told you, I've thought about it often.

 I weigh in every Friday, so I am hoping for a change in the scale tomorrow. I have 10 pounds to lose by August 1st...more on that tomorrow.

Monday, June 24, 2013

Relay Weekend

Let me recap my weekend for you. And by you, I mean the one person that reads my blog. You know who you are ;)

I said before that I was taking most of last week off since I knew I would be toast after Relay for Life. And boy did I make the right choice!! Walked over 18 miles and took over 29k steps!!! Um, my feet were so swollen that they were almost unrecognizable by 8 am. I was sore in places I didn't know was possible to be sore. I ate like crap, and didn't regret it at all. It was SOOOOO worth it. I had a blast.  We stopped on the track at around 12:30 am and danced for nearly an hour. Dance moves that no one has ever heard of, like, "kilting" and "yodeling." We laughed at the most ridiculous things. Things that are only funny at 3 am to delirious walkers. We were loud, and goofy, and we raised a whole heck of a lot of money all for a great cause. A cause that is very near and dear to my heart. The American Cancer Society is such an amazing organization. I will forever be a relayer. Forever!

Some of the dancers lighting the glow sticks to put in the luminaria bags representing each month of the year. 

This was about 2:30 am and my second coffee of the night. 

As you can tell, we had a great time. And I can't wait until next year!!

Thursday, June 20, 2013

It's a nice day for a wedding link up.

I know, I know. I suck at daily blogging. I'll work on it.

I've taken this week off from working out. Before you drop your jaw, or roll your eyes, it's because I am doing Relay for Life tomorrow and I plan on walking 20 miles. 80 laps. Yep, I'm crazeballs. We will see how far I go, but I really feel like I can do it. I plan on bringing 3 pairs of shoes so I can change things up and confuse the heck out of my feet so they don't hurt too awfully bad.

And now for my first link up. Let me see if I can do this right. button
 A few bloggers that I follow on IG and BlogLovin' have a fun link up and I thought I would give it a whirl. You can follow Mel and Holly and laugh your ass off and be inspired just like I do!!! Seriously, they are some funny chicks. Now to my white trash beautiful wedding.

Matt proposed to me on my birthday in 2008 after being together for 7 months. ( I will post our love story one day) This would be the second wedding for me, and the first for him. We discussed a big wedding or a small one, and because it was his first, we started to plan a big one. And then after many, many crazy roadblocks, and 2 postponed dates, we decided to just do it. We were sick of planning. Sick of budgeting. Sick of things getting in the way of our marriage. We just wanted to be married. That's all. The happily ever after. We no longer cared. We were tired and fed up of all things "wedding". So after talking with a friend who got married at the courthouse, I picked up the phone, and made a reservation. 4 weeks later....

I picked up a zebra print dress (cut me some slack, it was 2009) and a button up shirt for us at Macy's. We had my kids and our good friends stand up for us and Wham-Bam-Thank-You-Mam we were hitched. Nope, I wasn't knocked up. Nope, he wasn't leaving for the military. We were just head over heels in love and wanted to sign that piece of paper!! It was quick, and we had family and friends there and that was all that mattered. We left right after for a night at the coast and had a blast. 

My sister, sister-in-law and cousin planned a reception for the day after we got home from the coast. It was supposed to be at my Gram's house since she had a big house, but she got hurt the day before, so change of plans, and it was at our house. We all piled into our 1200 sq ft. home and had a great time. My daughter wrote a beautiful letter to her Step Dad, and I don't think there was a dry eye in the room. 

So would I change anything? Nope. It was perfect for us. I love Matt more than any person I have ever loved before and THAT is all that matters. We have decided to renew our vows at 5 years, and I am going to give him the wedding he deserves (which I just realized is in 1 year and 5 months, THANK GOD for Pinterest) and we are going to do it big. He has said that he wants to see me walk down and aisle, and he wants to dance together to a first dance. So we will be doing it. November of 2014!! 

My adorable, fun, awesome family. 

Thursday, June 6, 2013


I used to watch people while they ran. Creepy? Perhaps. I was so envious. I wanted to run so badly. But I had every excuse in the book not too. I got shin splints, side stitches, my feet were too flat, I jiggled too much. Then one day I just tried it. I ran the straight stretch of the track I was walking. It was horrible. I jiggled, I couldn't breathe, my shins were on fire, but at the end of that straight stretch I was still alive. So I walked the curve, and ran the next straight. And it was horrible again. But again, I was still alive.
So I kept doing it, and now I must confess: I AM ADDICTED TO RUNNING!!!! Is it pretty? Nope. Am I graceful? Uh uh. Am I fast? Hell no!!! Do I care? Absolutely not!!! I still get shin splints, I still get side aches,  I still drool while I am trying to breath, but I just do it and have fun!! I love being alone on a run, with my headphones in, my music on as loud as it will go and not a care in the world.

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

12 long days

It's been 12 long days since I've posted. 12 long, draining, emotionally exhausting, life changing days.
One week ago today, a beautiful soul went to be with her husband and son in Heaven. I spent 40+ hours a week with this special woman. She had a very full, wonderful life and I am so very thankful she is no longer having to endure discomfort and at times pain. But I miss her so very much. And now I don't know what to do with myself. I will figure it out. I always do. But for now, I am just kind of feeling lost.

On a positive note, I am still chugging away (not literally) at my weight loss. I've lost 22 pounds so far. Last Friday, I looked at myself naked ewwww and I was shocked!!! I can see visible changes. There are less rolls and things are starting to go back to where they belong. 22 pounds doesn't seem like a huge amount when I still have 30 to go to my goal weight, but it's starting to make a difference. I measured myself last Friday as well. I've lost 3 inches off of my waist, 3 off of my hips, 1 from my arms, and 2 from my thigh.

I took a picture yesterday for "Transformation Tuesday":

HOLY HELL!!!!! Why didn't anyone tell me I was THAT big. I am pretty sure I swallowed a damn Christmas tree and it's stuck in my cheeks!! Never again. Never.AGAIN!!! 

Friday, May 17, 2013

I hate my guts.

So I'm not sure how many people actually read this, but I thought today I would post about getting healthy while battling an Auto-Immune Disease. Hi, My name is Misty, and I have Crohn's disease. Yes, Crohn's is an actual disease. Yes, it is much more than a "stomach ache". No, I do not shit myself daily. No, having an Auto-Immune Disease does not mean I have the HIV virus or AIDS. No, I do not have my colon. And no, I do not have a colostomy bag.

Maybe I should start by explaining what Crohn's disease is. Crohn's disease is an Inflammatory Bowel Disease or an IBD. It is also an Auto-Immune Disease. So in simple terms it means that my immune system is constantly attacking itself and the attack happens within my gastrointestinal tract causing inflammation and swelling along with severe pain. It also causes joint pain, fatigue, fevers, nausea, bitchiness, weight loss, weight gain. Sound like a party? It totally is NOT.

In the past when I've tried to lose weight, it's been difficult because of not only my lack of motivation, but also fear. It's very hard to try to work around things that cause stomach cramps and regular trips to the bathroom. Since I got sick in 2003, I've found what works and what doesn't by trial and error. So this time around with my weight loss journey, I knew I wanted it. Just didn't know how long it would last. Salad and raw veggies are hard on the intestines. They are hard for a normal body to break down, so someone that doesn't have a colon, it's THAT much harder. And everyone knows that part of dieting and eating well includes a ton of veggies. Meal replacement shakes are out of the question. I might as well live in the bathroom if I attempt that route.

I do fluctuate by at least 3 pounds in my weight. I always retain a lot of water. And some foods and sodium make me balloon up. Working out is hard some days. The fatigue I experience is indescribable. I can sleep for 9 hours a night, and wake up feeling like I've slept 1. 3 out of 7 days, I wake up with nausea. I eat and get stomach cramps. So you can see that there is always some excuse why I just shouldn't work out.

I am really learning to work through the pain. To step up and do it anyways. To eat salad, and veggies and work with what I've been dealt. I know that on top of being smaller, I will be healthy. I will hopefully retrain my guts to work with me and not against me. I will learn to stop being crabby just because I don't feel good, and that if I am in a bad mood, lace up my shoes and go run it off. Life hasn't been kind to me in the health department. I am however, thankful that I am alive. Thankful to have a second chance. Thankful that I get to watch my kids grow, and spend everyday with my husband. So I will do WHATEVER it takes to stay healthy and strong and ALIVE for them. I refuse to succumb to my shitty circumstances (pun intended)

So that's why I hate my guts!

Happy Friday all!!! (all 2 of you that read this that is)

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Mission Impossible? Nah...

I went home from work yesterday with every intention of starting some weight training last night. And then I got home and realized I was EXHAUSTED from the mentally draining day at work. So I put laundry away, cleaned the spare room, and ate dinner and went to bed. I was asleep by 9:30. Woke up this morning and was pissed off because I hadn't worked out. That's when it hit me today. I NEED to set some goals. I need to hold myself more accountable. So here they are:

1. Get up and workout before I go to work. No excuses. Up at 6 am everyday, except for Sunday's.
2. Stop weighing myself everyday. Only on Friday's from now on.
3. Create a workout schedule.
4. Stop making excuses.
5. 20 pounds lost by 5/17/2013.
6. 30 pounds lost by 6/17/2013.

These are all very attainable goals. Like I have said plenty of times before, I want this. No more excuses.

Monday, May 13, 2013

Is this for real?!?!

When I started this weight loss journey in March, I HONESTLY thought that I would be able to hang for a week or so and then give up. Just the same as I had 200 times before. In the past 4 years, I've tried cutting soda, tried Weight Watchers, joined the name it, I tried it. Nothing worked. I blamed it on Matt's eating habits, I blamed it on being too busy, I blamed it on how expensive healthy foods where. I blamed it on everything under the sun. When in fact, I was unmotivated. I didn't want it bad enough. I didn't care honestly. I liked my cupcakes and I sure as hell wasn't going to give them up. When I stepped on that scale and it read 182, something clicked. I was sad. I was disgusted. I was ashamed. And most certainly I was ANGRY with myself for ever letting it get that out of control. Now I know that there are some that were/are bigger than 182. I am not comparing myself to others. I am talking about how I felt in that moment. 182 IS big for someone that is only 5'2" and up until 2008, only weighed 110 max. (minus the 2 pregnancies, and the year long Prednisone hell) I used to be so cocky, and arrogant in my thought process. I used to say "I don't have fat potential", or "I am just a small person with a high metabolism". Well those words sure as shit bit me in my fat ass. The fact is, I do have fat potential. I proved that without a shadow of a doubt.

I have had many, many, many things happen to me medically, and so I was scared that this weight loss would never happen for me. That my body was beyond the point of no return. But I can PROUDLY say that that is not the case. It is happening. And it's happening faster than I ever thought would be possible. Some days, I get deflated and feel that it's not happening fast enough. But as of yesterday, this happened:
Wait...what does that say???? 163.8???? Does that REALLLLLLY mean that I am 1.2 pounds away from 20 pounds lost? Does that mean that if I lose those 1.2 pounds by the 17th, that I've lost 20 pounds in 2 months?? You bet your sweet ass it does!!!! And look my toes are painted!! :) I still have 30 pounds to go until my goal of 130, but now that goal feels more tangible. Like I can really get there.

 I do want to say thank you to all of my cheerleaders. My family and friends, and even some strangers that cheer me on daily. Losing weight is hard work. It's a full time job (someone should really pay me. Just sayin') counting calories, resisting temptation and laziness, working out, prepping, etc. It's all a lot of work, and can be mentally draining, but this chick is in for the duration!! 

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Thursday, May 2, 2013

To the the wall.

Totally just sang that song in my head as I was typing it.
And yep...I've hit yet another wall. Been sitting at 169.0 for over a week and a half. Booooooo!!! Correction- I lost .6 pounds in a week and a half.
I know why though, and it's 100% my fault. I haven't been pushing myself to work out lately. I find every excuse in the book not too. And usually it's that I am tired. It's very very hard to do this weight loss thing, on top of having a disease that drains your energy. But excuses are like...well ya know. Time to push harder. Who cares if I am tired. I am always tired so working out isn't going to kill me. Time to step up my game, and stop with the excuses.
I plan on throwing some weights in a few nights a week on top of cardio.
I am still eating really well. I did find some coconut m&m's in my cupboard the other night. I let myself have 12. And then last night I went and got some healthy snacks. No more candy!!!!

I keep saying it, and I will say it again. I am more determined to lose this weight than I have been in a very long time. The fact that I know it can be done, that I have tasted a smidge of the results, keeps me going.
So time for my Greek yogurt and banana! Happy Thursday everyone!

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Shame on me!!! Oh and also, YAY for me!!!

Okay so only 22 days between my last post and this one...whoopsie!
I will blame it on being busy, being sick, being lazy...ya know, the usual.

Soooooooo....who lost 10 pounds?? I did! I did!! (12.8 pounds to be precise) And now I have to make this blog public. Poop. I wasn't expecting it to actually happen when I started writing this. But it did. And even though no one knows I made that little promise to myself, I can't let myself down now can I?

This weekend, I wore something other than sweats and yoga pants, and holy heck! I got more compliments than I knew what to do with! So, I guess this little weight loss thing is actually workin!! HOT DAMN! I felt better about myself than I have in years. So with all that said, I will keep going. I am one determined bitch, and I will not back down from this challenge.

I will leave you all (whoever you all are) with a few things I've learned so far on this journey!

1. Get out of your own mind and stay off the scale. Hi, my name is Misty, and I a scale-aholic. I check it in the morning, before I go to bed, after every time I's become an obsession. And not a good one either. So I am trying to get on it only on Friday's from now on. I know that I am going to go up and down in weight,so why torture myself.

2. Life really can be mind over matter. Just today I picked up a bag of M&M's and looked at the calories. I was tempted to say screw it and put those 230 calories of delightfulness in my mouth. But I didn't. I set the package back down, and cut up some watermelon instead.

3. Sleep is important. If you don't get enough sleep and you're ass draggin', then you will cut corners. You won't work out, you will eat foods of convenience, and you will feel horrible about yourself.

4. Don't push yourself too hard. I feel so good after a workout, that I want more. But I know that if I don't pace myself, I will hurt later, and then won't want to exercise the next day. A good workout can be addicting though, and it is so hard not to push myself to the breaking point.

5. You learn as you go. You figure out what works and what doesn't. What works for you may not work for someone else and vice versa.

I am only 12 pounds in, and I still have a LOT to learn, but I feel like I can do it. That I will do it. And NOTHING is going to stop me.

Monday, April 8, 2013

Week three? Really!?!?!

So today started the third week of getting healthy. I can't believe I have made it this far. I haven't lost any more weight, but I didn't gain either. I had a pretty rough week last week. On Wednesday I went to go for my walk and had it in my head that since I was going alone and could go at my own pace, I was going to go for 4 miles. I made it 1 lap around the track and felt like I couldn't move one step further. The cramps in my calves and the pain around my knees was almost unbearable. I kept going though and by lap three I knew if I didn't go home then, I might not make it home. So I got in 1.14 miles. Pathetic to say the least. Thursday it rained, and so I decided to take a break and not do a damn thing. So that's what I did. The entire time my inner skinny chick was yelling at me. I ignored that bitch. Friday I got up and did 45 minutes of Zumba, and also started my 30 day squat challenge with 70 squats. Who knew I had thigh muscles!! And ones that could actually hurt! Holy hell. Weekends are always difficult for me. We had a dance competition to be at all day Saturday, and I ate really well while we were there. The team went out for pizza after and I had 2 slices of pepperoni pizza.Ugh. Never again. Not sure if it's because my stomach isn't used to grease now, or what but it wasn't fun later that night with the tummy cramps.

Last night I took my measurements finally. Since I am posting and being brutally honest with myself, I will post them here.

Measurements as of 4/7/2013:

Calf 16"
Thigh 28"
Hips 41"
Waist 37.5"
Chest 39"
Arm 12"

Talk about accountability!! Good grief, I can't take that back now. Welllll I could, but I won't.

I am hoping to lose more pounds this week. I bought some "leg cramp" pills the other night. Going to give them a try tonight. Hopefully one day, my walks will turn into runs.

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Start of week two and weekend trash

Yesterday was the two week mark. In two weeks I lost 7 pounds. I almost gave up on Thursday. I almost gave up on Saturday. Oh and I almost gave up yesterday. I confess...I ate a Carl's Jr. western star burger last night for dinner. And then I immediately went on a 2 mile walk. Oh and I paid for that burger all night long. STOMACH CRAMPS FROM HELL!!!! So today I realize that while it tasted like heaven, it was not worth it. No more cheating. NO MORE FAST FOOD. I am determined. We went out for dinner Saturday night at Red Robin and I found the lowest calorie item on the menu and it was actually really good. If we are going to eat out, I will find a healthy alternative. I can and will do this, because if I can lose 7 pounds, I can lose 14.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Defeated? No way.

Got on the scale this morning and weighed 177.0. It's 5 pounds less than I was when I first started this weight loss experiment journey. I was a little, no a lot, sad that it wasn't more than that. I lost the first 4 so quickly, so to lose only one pound in a week was a little defeating. But I am not giving up. I am one week and 3 days in and I know I have it in me to keep going.

I started doing Zumba at home on Wednesday morning. It was hard as hell. The moves are somewhat hard to learn, but as I am watching, I can see the muscles that each move is intended to work. So knowing that I am working muscles that haven't been worked in a long time, I am excited to see the results. I am still walking about every 2 days or so with Matt and if it's raining, then I work out with a video. I have only taken one day off. I feel like I am addicted to working out.

Eating...that's been difficult. I've found some easy stuff to eat for lunches. Steamed veggies, with I Can't Believe it's Not Butter Lite and Lemon Pepper is my favorite so far. I mix up different veggies each day. Breakfast is usually a smoothie, or oatmeal with honey and a banana. Dinners are hard, but Matt has been very good at helping me figure out things that are low calories but still good enough for him to eat. Snacking is always a fruit or veggie. Cucumbers, strawberries, apple slices. I am learning to portion. I put baby bell peppers in a ziplock bag instead of eating all of them in one sitting. I eat 2 tacos instead of 4. Hopefully I am doing it right...who knows. It's still early.

I thought about making this blog public before the month was up, but this afternoon changed my mind. I really want to make sure that I stick with it, and am learning and able to help others at the same time. So for now it's still a secret!!

Friday, March 22, 2013

Day 5...ugh.

So today is day 5. 5 days of counting calories and attempting to do some sort of exercise everyday. I have struggled to be good already. The evening of day one concluded with me demolishing half of a chocolate Easter Bunny. I ate that thing in 2 seconds. Serious. I am surprised I didn't wake up the next morning with chocolate smeared across my face. Felt beyond guilty and woke up the next morning and did a 25 minute cardio video. Man are the instructors on those videos annoying. Thank goodness for iTunes and my headphones. I am slowly learning how to spread my calories out over the day. The first day I didn't eat until lunch and then I had a smoothie. A smoothie for lunch?? Who does that? That poor bunny had no chance in hell after I ate a damn smoothie for lunch. 
The hubs has been beyond supportive. Helping me figure out ways to make dinners that we can both enjoy. We had turkey tacos for dinner one night and have decided that we will always cook with turkey meat from now on. Buh-bye ground beef!! Night 3 I had spare calories (700 of them!!!) so I decided to enjoy a few Peeps. Well after not having sugar like that for 3 whole days, I almost tossed the one and a half peep that I got down, back on to the floor. WOAH was that sugar rush that my tummy was not appreciating! So odd to me that it only took 3 days for my stomach to disagree with something that I have eaten my whole life. 
Day 4 I weighed myself (okay who am I kidding, I weigh every damn day.) and OH MY LANDS!!! I lost 4 pounds. 4 pounds!! 4 MOTHER EFFING POUNDS!!!!!!!!Big deal? No? WELL IT IS TO ME!!! Especially since I gained 2 on day one. So, technically, I lost 6. But we will just go with 4! 
Zumba videos are on their way. I am so excited. I will probably still put my headphones in though. I just love my own music!! Getting up at 6:45 to exercise is rough. But the one day I didn't do it (yesterday) I was so overwhelmed with guilt that I went home after work and immediately went for a 2 mile walk. 
Am I doing all of this right? Who knows. But I am feeling a little bit better about myself everyday. And I am going to stick with it. I am beyond determined this time!! 

Monday, March 18, 2013

Day one...Here we goooooooo!

All I can say is thank goodness for decimal points, but holy hell where did that number come from??? Never in my entire life have I weighed that much. Not when I was pregnant with either kid, not when I was on 60 mg of Prednisone for over 8 months. I woke up yesterday morning feeling like a tub of goo and decided to weigh myself. I was SHOCKED to see that it was that high. So I did what every normal fat girl does, and posted a picture of my weight on Facebook. JUST KIDDING. I think I am the only person in the world stupid brave enough to post my weight for 330 of my closest friends to gossip about.I honestly did it to hold myself accountable. That number will go down. Going up is not an option. And now for this blog. Does the world need another blog, about another chic trying to lose weight? Probably not. Am I going to jump on the weight-loss-blog-train anyways? Choo-Choo!!! I haven't decided when to publish this. I want to do it when I am at 172.6. Then I can prove that I mean BID-NESS!
Day One started with a cup of coffee. I needed it. I can't cut out caffeine totally without getting a major headache. So I made it less Starbucks, and more Denny's as possible. Then lunch I made a smoothie. Oh my gosh it was delicious. However, it wasn't filling enough. I had to have apple slices and a Laughing Cow cheese wedge as a snack. Lesson learned. Smoothie for breakfast and a light lunch. I know that when I get hungry I eat. When I am bored I eat. When I am mad...I eat. So I have to fix my behaviors. As of today I am using the MyFitnessPal app to track my food intake. I will be walking as much as I can. Hopefully soon my Zumba videos will be here. I feel like I am finally wanting this bad enough. I can do it. I know I can.