Defeated? No way.

Got on the scale this morning and weighed 177.0. It's 5 pounds less than I was when I first started this weight loss experiment journey. I was a little, no a lot, sad that it wasn't more than that. I lost the first 4 so quickly, so to lose only one pound in a week was a little defeating. But I am not giving up. I am one week and 3 days in and I know I have it in me to keep going.

I started doing Zumba at home on Wednesday morning. It was hard as hell. The moves are somewhat hard to learn, but as I am watching, I can see the muscles that each move is intended to work. So knowing that I am working muscles that haven't been worked in a long time, I am excited to see the results. I am still walking about every 2 days or so with Matt and if it's raining, then I work out with a video. I have only taken one day off. I feel like I am addicted to working out.

Eating...that's been difficult. I've found some easy stuff to eat for lunches. Steamed veggies, with I Can't Believe it's Not Butter Lite and Lemon Pepper is my favorite so far. I mix up different veggies each day. Breakfast is usually a smoothie, or oatmeal with honey and a banana. Dinners are hard, but Matt has been very good at helping me figure out things that are low calories but still good enough for him to eat. Snacking is always a fruit or veggie. Cucumbers, strawberries, apple slices. I am learning to portion. I put baby bell peppers in a ziplock bag instead of eating all of them in one sitting. I eat 2 tacos instead of 4. Hopefully I am doing it right...who knows. It's still early.

I thought about making this blog public before the month was up, but this afternoon changed my mind. I really want to make sure that I stick with it, and am learning and able to help others at the same time. So for now it's still a secret!!

Day 5...ugh.

So today is day 5. 5 days of counting calories and attempting to do some sort of exercise everyday. I have struggled to be good already. The evening of day one concluded with me demolishing half of a chocolate Easter Bunny. I ate that thing in 2 seconds. Serious. I am surprised I didn't wake up the next morning with chocolate smeared across my face. Felt beyond guilty and woke up the next morning and did a 25 minute cardio video. Man are the instructors on those videos annoying. Thank goodness for iTunes and my headphones. I am slowly learning how to spread my calories out over the day. The first day I didn't eat until lunch and then I had a smoothie. A smoothie for lunch?? Who does that? That poor bunny had no chance in hell after I ate a damn smoothie for lunch. 
The hubs has been beyond supportive. Helping me figure out ways to make dinners that we can both enjoy. We had turkey tacos for dinner one night and have decided that we will always cook with turkey meat from now on. Buh-bye ground beef!! Night 3 I had spare calories (700 of them!!!) so I decided to enjoy a few Peeps. Well after not having sugar like that for 3 whole days, I almost tossed the one and a half peep that I got down, back on to the floor. WOAH was that sugar rush that my tummy was not appreciating! So odd to me that it only took 3 days for my stomach to disagree with something that I have eaten my whole life. 
Day 4 I weighed myself (okay who am I kidding, I weigh every damn day.) and OH MY LANDS!!! I lost 4 pounds. 4 pounds!! 4 MOTHER EFFING POUNDS!!!!!!!!Big deal? No? WELL IT IS TO ME!!! Especially since I gained 2 on day one. So, technically, I lost 6. But we will just go with 4! 
Zumba videos are on their way. I am so excited. I will probably still put my headphones in though. I just love my own music!! Getting up at 6:45 to exercise is rough. But the one day I didn't do it (yesterday) I was so overwhelmed with guilt that I went home after work and immediately went for a 2 mile walk. 
Am I doing all of this right? Who knows. But I am feeling a little bit better about myself everyday. And I am going to stick with it. I am beyond determined this time!! 

Day one...Here we goooooooo!

All I can say is thank goodness for decimal points, but holy hell where did that number come from??? Never in my entire life have I weighed that much. Not when I was pregnant with either kid, not when I was on 60 mg of Prednisone for over 8 months. I woke up yesterday morning feeling like a tub of goo and decided to weigh myself. I was SHOCKED to see that it was that high. So I did what every normal fat girl does, and posted a picture of my weight on Facebook. JUST KIDDING. I think I am the only person in the world stupid brave enough to post my weight for 330 of my closest friends to gossip about.I honestly did it to hold myself accountable. That number will go down. Going up is not an option. And now for this blog. Does the world need another blog, about another chic trying to lose weight? Probably not. Am I going to jump on the weight-loss-blog-train anyways? Choo-Choo!!! I haven't decided when to publish this. I want to do it when I am at 172.6. Then I can prove that I mean BID-NESS!
Day One started with a cup of coffee. I needed it. I can't cut out caffeine totally without getting a major headache. So I made it less Starbucks, and more Denny's as possible. Then lunch I made a smoothie. Oh my gosh it was delicious. However, it wasn't filling enough. I had to have apple slices and a Laughing Cow cheese wedge as a snack. Lesson learned. Smoothie for breakfast and a light lunch. I know that when I get hungry I eat. When I am bored I eat. When I am mad...I eat. So I have to fix my behaviors. As of today I am using the MyFitnessPal app to track my food intake. I will be walking as much as I can. Hopefully soon my Zumba videos will be here. I feel like I am finally wanting this bad enough. I can do it. I know I can.